There are moments in life when we know that things will just never be the same afterwards. Things like high school graduations, job changes or new additions to families are all key events that we know will change our lives.
This feeling often comes after elections or when big policies change; and there is a collective realisation that things will never be the same. There are also smaller versions of this, and random things can change everything.
The realisation that things are changing is a harsh one, that feeling when you can just feel that things are changing--even if you want to ignore the choice that you have to make. Read on to hear how it has happened to other people.
“Giving my notice to my boss last Friday. I’m across the country from any friends and family, and I have no job lined up. If I stay here I’ll wind up a shell of a person.
So I’m quitting and moving back home with only my savings and the grace of my family to catch me.
No going back now. Wish me luck.”
“I ran away from an abusive home at 19.
I called my dad while I was at work later that day to let him know I was okay and not to come looking for me. He’s a narcissist and I was so scared he’d tell the authorities something crazy so they’d track me down for him, like my boyfriend kidnapped me.
I’d left my car keys on the kitchen table so he couldn’t charge me with stealing it, as he bought it for me, emptied my bank account (because he was friends with the small bank owner) and taken everything I could with me- and that was a pretty big one. He said “you’ll never make it without me and my money” and I just said “I can’t wait to find out.” That was seven years ago now, and I’m making it.
"Walking into a MMA fight and the cage closes behind you."
“I remember the day my ex husband texted me and said “you don’t seem very happy with me.”
I knew there would be no going back once I said “I’m really not.” Starting over completely was really hard, but now I’m married to someone who makes me super happy and it makes all the hardships worth it.”
“When I was on my way to see a girl I had been talking to online for three months who lived on the other side of the world. Just put all of my eggs in one basket and said “fuck it”.
The “shit, no going back now” feeling really hit when the plane took off.
That girl is now my wife. Sometimes you just gotta go for it.”
“Moving to Europe.
For my husband, it was moving home. For me, nope. But I have a rare disease and American insurance was about to actually kill me (kept denying medications, I was getting worse and worse) and he managed to get an amazing job in a great city to try to save my life.
So five years ago, we’re two hours into our flight there, THE flight where we’re moving forever, and I was too sick to visit first or anything so I’ve never seen it before, and I’m realizing, I’m not actually well enough to fly back to the US, who knows when I’ll see anything or anyone from again, and this is it, and…
Suddenly, I’m just a bit panicking gone. Like, “What is plane? Where is air?” The flight attendant was offering me a cup of tea at that almost exact moment and I just stared at my husband, who is a former Marine and has done all of these insane things, and he looked at me and goes, “Take. The. Tea.”
I felt like an idiot version of Neo in the Matrix. “If you take the tea… the flight keeps going and you see how far this rabbit hole goes. If you don’t take the tea… this poor flight attendant stands here looking like a fucking idiot for even longer.” So anyway, I took the tea from the dude, and then I guess it worked because who can panic while trying to make tea?
Turns out it was truly the point of no return. It’s been five years. The insurance is MUCH better than the US, they’ve kept me alive when I definitely would have died, but I’m too sick to actually leave. I couldn’t even go home for my grandmother’s funeral. So… shit, there really was no going back. Unless something kicks in, new treatments etc, I doubt I’ll ever see home again.”
“When I decided to venture alone on a hiking trail through the Brasilian rainforest, realized there was no phone coverage after half an hour, kept walking for another hour, and finally saw a sign of civilization.
A literal sign. Just that. It said ‘beware of coral snakes’.”
“The day I quit my religion.
I had been having doubts for sometime but then one day I just put all the puzzle pieces together and realised that it’s not the truth.”
“Hiking, knowing that severe, SEVERE weather is on the way.
I got about 8 miles in when it started. Dense woods but rain was heavy enough that I couldn’t see 10 feet in front of me. Crossed a small creek half way through, which on my way back turned into a river from flash floods.
I found a somewhat large rock sticking out from a hill and huddled under that for about 15 minutes while lighting struck close enough to hurt my ears and seriously rumble in my chest.
Ended up having to follow the creek upstream until it got small enough to cross, which turned what was originally 2 miles of hiking trail, into probably another 8 through raw forest, maybe more as it was pitch black when I got back to my car, and I had started at noon. Spent those hours balling my eyes out and slipping in mud lmao
Easily in the top five most terrifying experiences in my life.”
"A bit dark but…when I took a bunch of pills in a suicide attempt.
It was around 10 pm on a Tuesday night and I had just gotten into an argument with my Mom. I layed down in my bed and thought about my life, considered asking my Mom to take me to the hospital, but decided against it. I thought, “Welp, this is it. I’m dying.”
Then I fell asleep. I took more than the lethal dose of Seroquel XR but somehow woke up in the morning, slow, but perfectly fine. I consider it a glitch in the matrix, but one I am grateful for. This was in August 2019, and I’m doing a lot better now. Still struggling, but not suicidal.”
“That first time being dropped off on the Appalachian Trail several states away from home and watching the car speed off into the distance with nothing by my own legs and a stick I found to get me back.
I love that stick.”